Pain shoots through me
as I remember your words.. So clear, so defined
Has it finally come down to this?
Your words are hitting me like a ton of bricks..
I can do no right
You are never wrong..
Pain hits me as your words keep ringing in my ears
This time for sure you really want me to go..
Tears keep falling
As I hear your hateful words so full of anger
as if I was the cause…
We both know I am not
but its easier for you to keep on blaming me.
You may of loved me once
But now,
nothing is left for you but words..

I have finally decided what to do
I can't take this again,
I should know by now
that if I keep coming back thinking
this time it would be different
I should know it never will be.

I can do no right
you think you are never wrong.. this time I won’t be able to let your words go..
I don't have what you want..
Who ever she may be I know that person isn’t me,
Nor will it ever be.. You have no idea what you have just lost..
There is a knife buried in my heart, turning, digging ever so deeper,
as if your hand is on the handle..
I never want to feel this much pain again
Tears keep running down my face
As your words hit home for the last time..

I just can't take this again
I should never of had to..
I was your lover, your friend not your whipping girl for
your inability to deal with your life..
I’m not getting back up again
just to fight a losing battle against your drinking..
I am finally giving up..
Just letting you know
That since you want me to go
I’m walking out for the last time and
I won’t be looking back..
I can't look back
I just can't take this pain in my world
As your words are ringing in my ears
To save myself
I’m gone
This time
It’s for good…

...Kim Snyder Copyright 2008

His answer to all this:
Staring at the Bottle